The end of wellness
The effort to be well, to rise above pain or to control our emotions and mind gets in the way to enlighten the heart.
At times the discomfort of not being centered or well is an impulse to research spirituality. Many of us have encountered a teacher, a discipline or teachings that have helped to maintain physical, emotional and mental stability. We value these practices and give them a great importance. They have saved us from pain, or reassured us that we are doing a good job.
We can find ourselves having a “career” of taking many “spiritual” or “health activities”, however, through time we do not see any valid internal changes. “The issue” continues to appear in solid or subtle ways and we may feel discouraged and frustrated in front of the fact that we are not really changing. If this is the case you may have been giving an “importance and effort” to your “spiritual life” that you do not need to have. If you have attached a meaning to it to “be good”, “to be recognized”, “to avoid pain”, “my private time”, or anything else, you are creating a false concept of spirituality and you are opening an abyss between your inner and outer world.
To pursue wellness does not make you a true seeker. The seeker’s heart is moved by devotion not by performance. The seeker’s heart is at ease with the pain of separation and seeks the truth of the absolute.
The path of wellness:
- Has an end while the path of the seeker is an eternal unfoldment towards infinity.
- Requires effort while the path of the seeker is based on surrender.
- Exploits you since from your eyes you will never be well enough and good enough.
- Reinforces your self-will and seduces you to do more and explore more.
- Creates a false privacy or sense of self while the path of the seeker invites and sees the whole as part of oneself.
- Makes you a technician while the path of the seeker makes you a poet.
- Needs to defend and nourish “the privacy” or “time alone” while in the path of the seeker there is no privacy since all you live is the true You.
- Offers many options and avenues while the path of the seeker is pathless.
Learn to discriminate between these two, and sincerely check what you are looking for. Are you really a seeker at heart? Or are you distracting yourself by wanting to get better and to get well? This way you will know when to apply self-care and enter yourself in the emptiness movement of the seeker’s heart.